Edited below. Date:
November 26, 2006To:
Beloved Fellow BloggersFrom:
Blogging - what else?
When it comes to blogging, I feel a bit like a preggo in her third trimester (exhausted, clumsy, and in my darkest moments, just hoping it will all be over soon). And actually, this is
my 9th month of blogging, which means that if blogging had a gestation period, I'd probably be about ready to give birth. But what would I be giving birth to?
And was it worth the swollen ankles and sleepless nights?
I've been struggling for a while to determine how much time and energy to put into blogging. I've also been struggling with how to manage my blogging. That is, how do I carve a suitable piece out of my life for blogging so that it is meaningful but not all encompassing?
I blog because it is addictive. And it is fun. And I love it. I love to write and this is my only outlet. But I continue to question it - the intensity of it - a little bit. This isn't the first time that I have written
But it is the first time I am seriously going to be making some changes. Because between work and Little Guy and other stuff going on, I just have to make some changes.
You may already have noticed that I don't visit your blog as often as I have in months past and I feel guilty about that because I value the virtual friendship we have - whether I've known you since I started blogging or I'm just getting to know you. Other bloggers have written about this guilt (e.g., see here
and maybe you have felt this guilt too?), and others have made the decision to scale back.
But these decisions are difficult and wrought with emotion because blogging friendships are real, and like any other friendship, they take time and nurturing. And this is what makes me saddest: that I don't have time to foster these relationships as much as I would like to, and that, some weeks or months from now, when I read a post about how two bloggers met each other in real life, I will sigh, and be just a teesy bit jealous. Because there is an opportunity cost to every decision, and I'm afraid I may lose some blogging friends over this one.
So, all this to say that I won't be in the blogosphere as much as I have been. Something's gotta give. I'll still be posting as much as I can, and I will be visiting blogs and commenting, but just not as often.
I'm sorry for all the introspection, but I just had to get this stuff off my chest because it's been gnawing at me for weeks.
And finally, to answer my own question: what have I given birth to? And has it been worth it?
Well, after 9 months, I've given birth to some wonderful blogging friendships and a collection of posts that chronicle some of the interesting and funny things that I have noticed as a first-time mother. Like motherhood, it's been tiring, but yes, it's definitely been worth it. And I would do it again if I had the chance.
Cuz you know, this is good, this blogging thing. I'm glad I started a blog. SO glad. I'm glad I met you and that we've been able to learn from each other. And hey, who knows? Maybe one day we'll even meet in real life. I think I'd like that.
***********Edited to add: Thanks to each of you for your comments. It's nice to know that so many of you feel the same way and that you understand. I appreciate it very much! xxoo